My Life

Okay, so.. I read a couple of my last posts, and they are downers. I started this blog to be funny, but here’s the thing. My 68 year old husband has early on-set Alzheimer’s, and my life is no longer funny.  I have lost my therapist, my friends are tired of me, and, you know what? I need an outlet. I have exactly three people that follow this blog, so here’s the thing.  Read this – don’t. Whatever.  I really don’t care.  I Have to have somewhere, someway, to vent. I don’t care if Anyone sees this. I am just putting it out there.

Apparently, going forward, my days, if today was an example,  will consist of Doug napping for two hours, and then, still, going to bed – for the night – at 7:00.

You know, that’s okay.  He needs his rest. And he takes sleeping pills, but, still…. I miss him.  I miss the companionship, the conversation, the Presence, of my husband, my best friend, my Guy!

So, I am going to quit my full-time job in December, to stay home with Doug, full time. I have worked, everyday, of my life, since I was18 years old. This will be a Major challenge.

So, this is my life – going forward.  And I am Not ungrateful. It is Not cancer. It is Not heart problems. It is Not stroke.  I get it!  God knows – it could be worse, and much more immediate.  But, the truth is – it is slow and agonizing, and very isolating.  But, I will find my way, somehow- to make our life as good as it can be, for as long as it can be, for my guy.

Stayed tuned.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

2 thoughts on “My Life”

  1. This one just does something to my heart or several things. I want to cry at the horrible illness that has attacked your man and your life, I smile when you say “my Guy,” I feel happy that you love this man so much and have been loved so deeply by him, I’m glad you will be able to take care of him, I’m sorry you have to take care of him. I so wanted you to grow old with your “Guy” and ge Joy the Golden Years. This will make sense to you because you know me so well and know I love you both. You know I’m here for you, you also know I can’t fix things for you but would if I could. I just pray that you can find some place/way to escape when your day is too painful, when the burden becomes too much to carry. You are strong and I pray you will be strong enough. Love to you my brave, wonderful friend.

    Sent from my iPad Judy Whitson

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    1. Thank you for your love and support! You are my light in a world that will eventually grow darker with time. I praise God that you are my friend and “head cheerleader”. Just knowing that gets me through a lot of tough days! Love you more than I can ever show. 💕

      Sent from my iPad

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