Okay, so.. I read a couple of my last posts, and they are downers. I started this blog to be funny, but here’s the thing. My 68 year old husband has early on-set Alzheimer’s, and my life is no longer funny. I have lost my therapist, my friends are tired of me, and, you know what? I need an outlet. I have exactly three people that follow this blog, so here’s the thing. Read this – don’t. Whatever. I really don’t care. I Have to have somewhere, someway, to vent. I don’t care if Anyone sees this. I am just putting it out there.
Apparently, going forward, my days, if today was an example, will consist of Doug napping for two hours, and then, still, going to bed – for the night – at 7:00.
You know, that’s okay. He needs his rest. And he takes sleeping pills, but, still…. I miss him. I miss the companionship, the conversation, the Presence, of my husband, my best friend, my Guy!
So, I am going to quit my full-time job in December, to stay home with Doug, full time. I have worked, everyday, of my life, since I was18 years old. This will be a Major challenge.
So, this is my life – going forward. And I am Not ungrateful. It is Not cancer. It is Not heart problems. It is Not stroke. I get it! God knows – it could be worse, and much more immediate. But, the truth is – it is slow and agonizing, and very isolating. But, I will find my way, somehow- to make our life as good as it can be, for as long as it can be, for my guy.